"Every disease is a physician."
~ Irish Proverb ~
And what feels a bit like numbness is actually a kind of attunement to the environment, I think. We adapt to patience and acute physical realities erupting and dissolving in waves. It's impossible to attach to anything. A hospital is a great place to learn of the inconstancy of all things. We are ok, and then not ok, grateful and fearful, very sick, and eventually well enough to venture home.
Sickness teaches me gratitude for wellness, and hospitals teach me gratitude for being home.