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Monday, October 19, 2020

BURNOUT

 "Slow and steady wins the race."
~ Hans Christian Anderson ~

The other day, someone described me as being "hyper-productive"
And I am not that all the time
but I have been on a roll lately.
What happens to me when I'm in that mode is that I burn out,
And lose patience
For everyone else 
Who is pleasantly productive.
I want to ramp them up to speed.

The point is,
This hyper productive mode is actually a trick.
It seems effective.
I get a lot done and feel proud,
But I'm isolated in it,
Seeking recognition for my accomplishments as if they define my worth,
And quick to irritation with all the things I can't control...
Which is almost everything.

It would be ok, and preferable even, to savor the experience I'm about 
Instead of choking it down in violent gulps.

I stop before I've gone too far. 


Sunday, October 18, 2020

BIG AND LITTLE

"That's the way that it goes."
~ Gillian Welch ~

Small things have an easier time turning than big things.
Think of the difference between a Mini Cooper and an 18 wheeler,
Or a kayak and a cruise ship.
There's labor and procedure and care required for big things to turn.
It takes planning
 and preparedness.
Little things, on the other hand,
Can turn on a dime,
Instantaneously,
Quick as a flash.

So which is better?

There's no better,
Just acknowledgement,
And appreciation,
That conditions are what they are. 

I accept the intrinsic characteristics of whatever I am trying to turn. 

Thursday, October 15, 2020

MEETING PEOPLE

 "What is a human being but a private soul hiding behind a public mask, asking for a little understanding."
~ Robert Brault ~

"What do you do?" seems rather a weak question.
And it's not much fun to answer either.
Surely we can think of something better to ask when we meet people for the first time.

I am curious about who you are more than what occupies your time. 

Wednesday, October 14, 2020

SOMETIMES

"A new broom sweeps clean but the old broom knows the corners."
~ Irish Saying ~

Sometimes life requires that we tidy up after other people,
And sometimes it requires that we tidy up after ourselves.  
And neat alone is not enough. 
It needs to be clean as well. 
Without that,
Things in the environment go to chaos pretty quickly,
And feel rather a mess.

I keep things neat and clean. 

Tuesday, October 13, 2020

NEW CHAPTERS

"To decide is to walk facing forward with nary a crick in your neck from looking back at the crossroads."
~ Betsy Garmon ~

When we choose something, we don't have to explain our choice,
or justify it to ourselves or others,
Or feel guilt.
Choice is simple:
We choose what we choose because
That's what we choose. 
And others may understand and approve,
Or they may not. 

I live by my choices, and experience what I choose.


Monday, October 12, 2020

HANDKERCHIEFS

"Love and fear. Everything the father of a family says inspires one or the other."
~ Joseph Joubert ~

My Dad never really seemed to approve of me,
And some of my choices made him angry
And withdraw.
Over and over we missed each other, basically,
But even as a girl, I felt a kind of intimacy with him when I explored his
Drawer of handkerchiefs and cufflinks,
And when he died,
They became mine.

The handkerchiefs are soft and white, and have his initials embroidered on them,
And through this pandemic,
their soft cotton has soothed me,
serving as my mask. 

The exchange of love we experience is both subtle and profound. 


Thursday, October 8, 2020

SACRED SPACE

"The Salvation Army always stands ready to relieve us of superfluous effects."
~ Emily Tolman ~

What is sacred space?
It's space that's internal as well as external,
Space that's honored,
And revered,
With no junk,

I stay mindful of the beautiful nature of who I am.