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Thursday, January 23, 2020

SIGNIFICANCE

"Life is what we make it, always has been, always will be."
~ Grandma Moses ~

Things happen in life and we give them significance, 
create an internal narrative, 
usually in such a way that our egos come out as heroes, 
or victims. 
And creating all this meaning around events is exhausting.

I remember when my twins were little and learned the word, 
"Why?" 
Whatever they thought of or saw: 
"Why, Mommy?" 
And, being an industrious, eager new mother, 
I would answer their questions to the best of my ability, 
in response to which they would say, 
"Why?"
     
Today, the best response to "Why?" I know is that 
there is no why, 
there just is.

Creating meaning out of every little life happening is exhausting and unnecessary.

Wednesday, January 22, 2020

BUCKLED

"Do not grieve. Anything you lose comes round in another form."
~ Rumi ~

To be brought to our knees is not necessarily a bad thing. 
Learning surrender may be the most powerful learning there is.

I relax, trust, and let go. 

Tuesday, January 21, 2020

TUG-OF-WAR

"Gazing into the lamp of emotional attachment, we are burnt, like moths in a flame."
~ Sri Guru Granth Sahib ~

Fear is an apparition, and maybe so is desire. 
They are not unlike each other. 
The one pushes us away and 
the other pulls us to it, 
but both effects are future driven 
and 
involve us in a tug-of-war.

I need not be jolted about by attachments. 
I choose to live free. 


Monday, January 20, 2020

BALANCE

"Practice compassion."
~ Dalai Lama ~

Balance is compassion in a way. It's understanding and appreciating two seemingly opposed influences, and bringing them to a space where unity is possible. We tend to prefer skewed thinking- all one way or the other. But to maintain balance is far more interesting, and better pleasing to the senses. Think of a seesaw: to keep both ends suspended is a flowing ride of give and take, and to lose the opposition is to thud uncomfortably to the ground.

I maintain equilibrium by owning the opposites that exist in me and in the world. 


Sunday, January 19, 2020

BEAUTY AND GOODNESS

"There are a thousand ways to kneel and kiss the earth."
~ Rumi ~

When we are able to be present enough, we can easily see all the ways we are fortunate and graced by beauty and goodness. 
And even if we can't see it, it's nonetheless true.

I look around and see. 

Thursday, January 16, 2020

VOICES

"Nine men out of ten obsequiously follow the tenth man."
~ James Lendall Basford ~

There will always be voices in the world that will tell us our ideas won't work, that they are, in fact, bad ideas, or faulty ones. And less prevalent, but also available, are those who get excited with us, and tell us we have surely hit pay dirt.
     None of these external opinions, however, have access to our inner voice, which is the one that drives the idea, so the relevant question, in terms of our life satisfaction, is, which voice do we listen to, and which do we ignore?

Opinions of all kinds are cheap and spread like a virus. 

Wednesday, January 15, 2020

TREE PROJECT

"There's no expiration date on the process."
~ Ildy Modrovich ~

I have transplanted 216 small dormant trees from the woods on our property to the roadside so that come spring, when they start to grow again, they might evolve into a lovely kind of privacy screen.  It's not been an easy job, nor a particularly enjoyable one, and I have been eager to get it done so I can move on to other projects. Today though, as I was nearing planting and staking completion, I understood clearly that the effort would not suddenly be over, and that what I have created is actually an ongoing partnership. Pruning, watering, re-staking- all of these will be required in the year to come, and maintenance and care for the trees' lifetimes, or my own.
     We like our check-off lists and no loose ends, but so much of what we engage in is a continuous process. It goes on, as we go on, and shifts, as we do, with the seasons and the day.

I stop aiming for things to be over and just let them be.