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Thursday, January 23, 2020

SIGNIFICANCE

"Life is what we make it, always has been, always will be."
~ Grandma Moses ~

Things happen in life and we give them significance, 
create an internal narrative, 
usually in such a way that our egos come out as heroes, 
or victims. 
And creating all this meaning around events is exhausting.

I remember when my twins were little and learned the word, 
"Why?" 
Whatever they thought of or saw: 
"Why, Mommy?" 
And, being an industrious, eager new mother, 
I would answer their questions to the best of my ability, 
in response to which they would say, 
"Why?"
     
Today, the best response to "Why?" I know is that 
there is no why, 
there just is.

Creating meaning out of every little life happening is exhausting and unnecessary.

Wednesday, January 22, 2020

BUCKLED

"Do not grieve. Anything you lose comes round in another form."
~ Rumi ~

To be brought to our knees is not necessarily a bad thing. 
Learning surrender may be the most powerful learning there is.

I relax, trust, and let go. 

Tuesday, January 21, 2020

TUG-OF-WAR

"Gazing into the lamp of emotional attachment, we are burnt, like moths in a flame."
~ Sri Guru Granth Sahib ~

Fear is an apparition, and maybe so is desire. 
They are not unlike each other. 
The one pushes us away and 
the other pulls us to it, 
but both effects are future driven 
and 
involve us in a tug-of-war.

I need not be jolted about by attachments. 
I choose to live free. 


Monday, January 20, 2020

BALANCE

"Practice compassion."
~ Dalai Lama ~

Balance is compassion in a way. It's understanding and appreciating two seemingly opposed influences, and bringing them to a space where unity is possible. We tend to prefer skewed thinking- all one way or the other. But to maintain balance is far more interesting, and better pleasing to the senses. Think of a seesaw: to keep both ends suspended is a flowing ride of give and take, and to lose the opposition is to thud uncomfortably to the ground.

I maintain equilibrium by owning the opposites that exist in me and in the world. 


Sunday, January 19, 2020

BEAUTY AND GOODNESS

"There are a thousand ways to kneel and kiss the earth."
~ Rumi ~

When we are able to be present enough, we can easily see all the ways we are fortunate and graced by beauty and goodness. 
And even if we can't see it, it's nonetheless true.

I look around and see. 

Thursday, January 16, 2020

VOICES

"Nine men out of ten obsequiously follow the tenth man."
~ James Lendall Basford ~

There will always be voices in the world that will tell us our ideas won't work, that they are, in fact, bad ideas, or faulty ones. And less prevalent, but also available, are those who get excited with us, and tell us we have surely hit pay dirt.
     None of these external opinions, however, have access to our inner voice, which is the one that drives the idea, so the relevant question, in terms of our life satisfaction, is, which voice do we listen to, and which do we ignore?

Opinions of all kinds are cheap and spread like a virus. 

Wednesday, January 15, 2020

TREE PROJECT

"There's no expiration date on the process."
~ Ildy Modrovich ~

I have transplanted 216 small dormant trees from the woods on our property to the roadside so that come spring, when they start to grow again, they might evolve into a lovely kind of privacy screen.  It's not been an easy job, nor a particularly enjoyable one, and I have been eager to get it done so I can move on to other projects. Today though, as I was nearing planting and staking completion, I understood clearly that the effort would not suddenly be over, and that what I have created is actually an ongoing partnership. Pruning, watering, re-staking- all of these will be required in the year to come, and maintenance and care for the trees' lifetimes, or my own.
     We like our check-off lists and no loose ends, but so much of what we engage in is a continuous process. It goes on, as we go on, and shifts, as we do, with the seasons and the day.

I stop aiming for things to be over and just let them be.

Tuesday, January 14, 2020

A CONCEPT FOR CONSIDERATION

"Take a step in some direction."
~ Robert Brault ~

The massive cultural concept we all sell ourselves is that a point of arrival is not only possible, but desirable, and the self help industry gives us the steps to get there.
5 steps to happiness,
3 steps to financial freedom,
7 steps to success.
It's made to be simple- a guaranteed process: follow the plan and get the result.
But for all of us who have set out to achieve something and achieved it (in other words, all of us) we know that the achievement itself is just another step to somewhere else we're going entirely...
And more often than not, we don't even know where that is.
We're just on the steps.
So here's a concept for consideration: that much as we long for security and stability, we actually want things to change and to keep changing, because that's the direction and the urgent, uncomplicated business of life itself.
We keep pushing to get to some point where there's no stress and we have no problems and all is light and bubbles and happiness, but that's not life! That's death.
So as long as we're alive, we better get the point of it, and embrace the dynamic, rhythmic, changing, daily, nature of our feelings and our circumstances and our energy and our guts.

I embrace the changing nature of my life experience. 

Monday, January 13, 2020

THIS AND THAT

"I contain multitudes."
~ Walt Whitman ~

Music, silence,
Morning, midnight, 
Sweet, savory, 
Hot, cold,

Sometimes I am tired and I can't sleep.
And sometimes I am happy and I weep.

Life is full of opposites and paradox. 


Sunday, January 12, 2020

FLEXIBILITY

"The rung of a ladder was never meant to rest upon, but only to hold a man's foot long enough to enable him to put the other somewhat higher."
~ Thomas Henry Huxley ~

Plans help us get started, but they don't generally take us all the way home.
Energy moves in unexpected directions and if we're smart we'll ride the currents where they go.
I used to get upset when I had to deviate from my mission,
And feel like there was something wrong,
But now I understand about the unknown.
It claims it's place in every project,
And creates possibilities that otherwise
Couldn't exist.

I make plans and stay curious. I never know what may or may not play out.  

Thursday, January 9, 2020

ENVIRONMENTAL SHIFT

"It's humbling to start fresh. It takes a lot of courage."
~ Jennifer Ritchie Payette ~

When we change something in a room- move a piece of furniture, hang a new picture on the wall- it changes the way everything else exists in relation to each other as well. There's a total environment shift. And isn't it the same when we make changes personally? Nothing is unaffected by the new dynamic, and nothing goes untouched.

I acknowledge that every action I take has a ripple effect. 

Wednesday, January 8, 2020

PHILOSOPHY

"The great business of life is to be, to do, to do without, and to depart."
~ John Viscount Morley ~

As it turns out, life is not about achievement.
And it's not about a smooth ride,
or pleasure,
or ease.
Life is about living, and that means 
All of it.
The ups, the downs,
The roundabouts,
And curly cues,
The deep dives,
the shallow shores,
the mist,
and the 
core. 

I live to experience life. 

Tuesday, January 7, 2020

ADAPTABILITY

"I am learning all the time. The tombstone will be my diploma."
~ Eartha Kitt ~

I believe we have a tendency to over-rate security, or, at the very least, to misunderstand it.
We aim for stability in finances, in relationships and in the things we own.
And yet, all of these are fluid, and as potentially changeable as the sky.
Our real security is where we cannot even properly perceive it-
It's in our ability to learn,
to adapt,
to heal,
and to forgive and start over as many times as we need to, 
And then again.

I trust my staying power. 


Monday, January 6, 2020

HOT AND COLD

"Wellness is the art of healing before you're sick."
~ Terri Guillemets ~

When I am cold, usually in the evenings, I love heat- the heat of fireplaces and down covers; and when I am hot, usually in the mornings, I love cold. I sit outside and have breakfast wrapped in a blanket when it's 30 degrees outside.
     And almost anytime, I love the sun. It's more than warm. It's life giving energy, and grows me like a plant.


I seek the things that soothe me, and avoid the things that don't. 


Sunday, January 5, 2020

HOW WILL WE GO?

"Take interest in the things that are and are to be, and not in the things that were and are past."
~ Henry Ward Beecher ~

Into the New Year we plunge.
Will we be reckless?
Thoughtful?
Will we slow down? 
Speed up?
How will we characterize this time?
These days?
This winter and the coming spring?
Will we do what we've always done
Or make subtle changes
And wear life easier
And looser
And 
Feel free?

I am curious about 2020. 

Thursday, January 2, 2020

R AND R

"It is meat for the hungry, drink for the thirsty, heat for the cold, and cold for the hot.. It is the current coin that purchases all the pleasures of the world..."
~ Miguel de Cervantes ~

Sometimes life requires extra sleep. 

I honor my body's need to recover from experience. 

Wednesday, January 1, 2020

WHAT'S NEXT?

"Time marches on."
~ American Saying ~

Now we are past New Years, what's next?
Today, tomorrow, and then the next day.
And again.
And again.
We keep on getting up and doing our thing,
And the richness of life is not in Holidays,
but in all the little details
of each day,
and each moment of our lives.

I appreciate the little things.