In order to step through a doorway into a new life, we have to pack up the past, both literally and figuratively. It's dusty and full of cobwebs, mold, and memories. We have to clean it and sort it, and throw some of it out. Before we can properly welcome what's to come, we have to let go of what has been, and that takes time and space, and a certain self-compassion.
And then we can step forth, knowing where we've been- all the ups and downs- and arriving at the threshold bright-eyed, and clear; forgiven, and fresh, and ready for the next chapter.
"Trust is letting go of needing to know all the details before you open your heart."
~ Author Unknown ~
We are moving again, and I have discovered in this move that I seem to have a fair bit of uncomfortable emotional baggage around the packing and boxed-up process. I have done it so many times, not all of the moves have played out well, and some have been downright difficult. So I find that's all stuck in me from the past making me mis-emotional and dark-feeling, and I'd like to create a new possibility- the possibility of being excited and maybe even giddy about the opportunity to live in a beautiful house that is gracious and spacious and surrounded by epic trees- where I can be who I am, put down roots, and relax into a new way of experiencing what it is to be home.
I thank God for entrusting us with the responsibilities and blessings of Sweet Iron Farm.
In any rhythm there are multiple beats. Among other possibilities, there's the main beat, the fast beat, the slow beat, the off beat, and the esoteric flowing through and around the melody kind of beat. And if we're moving to the music, we can pick and choose which one moves us- the one we resonate with, and the one that grabs our attention, or soothes us, or energizes us, or whatever the case may be. Point being: we have choices. Isn't it the same with every element and happening of our life?
"In each generation the human mind... reverts to its starting point; each new man is a primitive man."
~ Alexandre Vinet ~
I recently witnessed two male sheep butting heads. They ran straight for each other and made direct, hard, horn-cracking contact, then retreated several steps and did it again, and again, and again. Eventually, one of them buckled a bit and moved off sideways instead of straight back, and it was over.
This sort of pecking order is established routinely in the animal kingdom, so there must be some evolutionary basis for it, and, though maybe less directly, and whether we like it or not, the same phenomenon must play out on some level in the human realm as well.
I accept that as human beings, we are at least somewhat subject to our animal instincts.
"Be on the alert to recognize your prime at whatever time of your life it may occur."
~ Muriel Spark ~
I was clearing brush the other day and observed that a certain type of tree had long sharp thorns when it was young, which turned to nubs once it reached full maturity. Perhaps, like these trees, we need fewer defenses as we age because we are better rooted, more solid in structure, and command a higher view.
Once we grow up, we lose the need to be so sharp and prickly.
"Dancing faces you towards Heaven, whichever direction you turn."
~ Terri Guillemets ~
Much as we might try for security and stability, transitions of all kinds are constantly happening. Learning to dance with the emerging and the departing and the unknown soothes us as we make our way through the seasons, and gives us flexibility and trust that we wouldn't otherwise have.
"I never found the companion that was so companionable as solitude."
~ HD Thoreau ~
There is something necessary and healing about uninterrupted solitude. It gives us the space we need to explore our inner landscape and discover what's there, allows us to be 100% free from other people's needs, and makes it possible to simply and authentically go about things exactly as we please.
"This is the moment you can choose to make everything new."
~ Author Unknown ~
Sometimes I feel haunted by my past. Memories like fog linger and lurk around the sun of the moment. Feelings that I felt, things I may have said, people who populated my life in the distant land of yesterday crowd my mind in a kind of haze and keep me from being where I am... when where I am is where I want to be. It's clean and unclouded, untroubled, quiet, and fully alive.
Each plant has a growing "habit". Some grow in mounds, some in shoots, and some in colonies- some creep, some climb, some are massively tall and some are low to the ground. It depends on the plant, and considering the way they grow makes sense in terms of their placement in the garden.
Perhaps, though slightly less obvious, it's the same with us.
It's the 4th of July again- the height of heat and summer- the blasting of fireworks, the sparkle of sparklers, the gathering for picnics- flags flying, corn on the cob. It's festive and fun... in theory, though it doesn't always play out that way.
What's important to remember is the why of it and what we're really celebrating- our freedom, which is so easy to take for granted, and without which we would be limited and pinched.
"Wellness is the art of healing before you're sick."
~ Terri Guillemets ~
We all need personal space and some kind of time to ourselves for optimal well-being. Otherwise, we get so crowded physically and mentally that there is no room for insight or inspiration. This fact is often missed in early relationships when couples want to spend every waking moment together, but it's critical really. Without it, we suffocate and suffer. Point being, if it's not offered up to us by others, we need to claim it for ourselves.
"Somehow our devils are never quite what we expect when we meet them face to face."
~ Nelson DeMille ~
Spewing negative judgments onto other people and into the world is a dismal exercise. It generates defensiveness and darkness and gets us nothing worth having. We're far from perfect ourselves, so why not allow for the human-ness in others and spread compassion instead? It feels better and opens us to the energy of love.
I catch myself being negative about others and stop.