"Each of us is something of a schizophrenic personality, tragically divided against ourselves."
~ Martin Luther King Jr. ~
Some days life seems so simple and straightforward and good, and other days it's dark and convoluted and arduous and bleak. Is it the day, or is it us? And if it's us, then that's good news, because then we have the power to change our experience, to catch ourselves making it all so miserable and turn the day around.
"A man sooner or later discovers that he is the master-gardener of his soul."
~ James Allen ~
The opportunity often arises in life to escalate or de-escalate a situation, to become combative or let things be. What's important to acknowledge is that it's our choice. We are free agents, not victims at the mercy of triggers and opinions and argumentative folk.
In any life circumstance I can be pugilant or peaceful.
"If you don't know where you are going, you will probably end up somewhere else."
~ Lawrence J. Peter ~
I like to have a plan. It gives me a structure within which to operate, and a direction, and a way to anticipate what's to come.
I understand that plans change, that that's what they do, but I still like to make them. Otherwise I am bobbing about on the surface of life at the mercy of whatever may come.
"Imagination was given to man to compensate him for what he is not; a sense of humor to console him for what he is."
~ Francis Bacon ~
I've gotten bogged down in seriousness lately, been pulled at and trapped by it, like stepping in quicksand, where it's seemingly impossible to be free.
Lightness refreshes me and I have been heavy and slow to laughter, dense and dark with the perceived problems of my thinking mind.
"It is only the long and patient road that leads to anywhere."
~ Muriel Strode ~
Sometimes not only does nothing go as planned or hoped, but things also get stuck in ways that require immense patience. It's that modern effect of non-common-sensical information and circumstances we are force fed and just have to deal with- traffic and hold times on phone calls only to get a human who has no humanity, and waiting for food in busy restaurants, and computer downloads- silly things mostly, and yet, they cramp our flow... or they can, unless we're able to be quietly observant, and filled with good humor, and happily, spiritually fit.
I stay in good spiritual shape so I can navigate the frustrations of life with grace.
I used to drink a lot and do drugs just to deal with everyday living. It felt like more than I could bear to manage it all straight. And if someone suggested that I might be overdoing it, I felt they didn't properly understand my situation, and I couldn't imagine living any other way.
And now I don't drink or do drugs, and I can't imagine how I ever lived that way, which proves that change can happen, and that what seems important and impossible to us now may not be forever. I have learned beyond the shadow of a doubt that help is available, that we are not alone, that life deserves our full participation, and that it's well worth experiencing without being fogged in a chemical haze.
I keep my head clear and experience life as it comes.