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Sunday, September 27, 2020

PITCH DARKNESS

"When you possess light within, you see it externally."
~ Anais Nin ~

Sometimes life feels like we're standing
In a cave in the pitch dark
And can't see anything at all-
Not even our hand in front of us-
And we have to take a step.
It requires blind (literally) 
Trust.
And we may have to grope and stumble for a bit,
But eventually....
Eventually,
We will see some kind of light somewhere
And be able 
to move 
in its direction.

I trust the light. 

Thursday, September 24, 2020

STICKING SEEDS

"People become attached to their burdens sometimes more than the burdens are attached to them." 
~ George Bernard Shaw~ 

I bought some lovely ornamental grass for the garden today, and when I loaded it into the car, I noticed that it shed its fluffy ends some. And when I unloaded it, I realized that the seeds were all over. They were stuck to a towel, and the floor rug, and the seat, and there was no blowing or shaking them out. They were lodged fast. I considered if that's what it did in my car, it would likely do that in the earth, so if these seeds were fertile, I may have just bought myself an invasive nightmare. 

I googled it to confirm, and yes indeed. There, online, were folks like me who had brought it home and planted it and now it was everywhere and impossible to control.

So-

I won't be planting this grass.

And I will remember the lesson, and notice all the ways it applies to life.

I watch for unwanted spreading of all kinds, and take care to stop it fast.


Wednesday, September 23, 2020

POSSIBILITY MEETS THE MIRACULOUS

"Things are only impossible until they're not."
~ Jean-Luc Picard ~

There are things we know,
And things that we know we don't know.
And then there is a whole other realm of 
Things that we don't know we don't know.
And that's where possibility meets the miraculous,
And synchronicity happens,
And all the dreams we didn't even know we had
Come true.

I stop thinking I have all the answers, and open to divine mystery. 

Tuesday, September 22, 2020

THE BEST WE CAN DO IS GOOD ENOUGH

"I used to worry about what other people think of me until I realized, they don't."
~ Colloquial Saying ~

I have to be vigilant at night when I'm tired
That my thoughts don't turn on me
And make me second guess every decision I've made during the day.

I seem to have this built in anxiety around 
What other people think,
Or might think,
About what I've said or done,

The world does not turn according to my plans and decisions. 
I am both smaller and larger than I think. 

Monday, September 21, 2020

OVER AND OVER AGAIN

"Little fears love to walk on stilts."
~ Henry Stanley Haskins ~

Every time we're faced with a new uncertainty,
The same old fears tend to come up-
That it won't work out,
That we are doomed,
Or whatever our favorite fears may be... 

And the truth is that
Maybe it won't work out in the way that we hope,
But life has shown us 
Over and over and over again,
That whatever it is, we get through it,
And it always works out somehow
And no matter what,
We're ok. 

I stop feeding my fears and live free. 



Sunday, September 20, 2020

WELL-BEING AT THE DEEPEST LEVEL

"God offers to every mind its choice between truth and repose. Take which you please- you can never have both."
~ RW Emerson ~

To be truly honest with ourselves and others takes courage
And trust.
It seems easier most of the time to pretend,
Or deny,
But in the long run,
And at the level of our 
Soul's well-being,
It's not. 

I have the courage to speak my truth.

Thursday, September 17, 2020

MENTAL TRICKERY

"Watch it unfold live."
~Evan I. Schwartz ~

It goes both ways:
Sometimes we sweeten things in our minds in anticipation,
And when they actually happen, 
we feel jolted, 
and let down;
Or,
We expect the worst,
And end up delighted instead.
So what's the message?

Be the observer of it all.

I am the unassociated witness of life happening. 

Wednesday, September 16, 2020

WIPED OUT

"The vision must be followed by the venture."
~ Vance Havner ~

In some ways, mental activity can be more draining than physical activity,
And it doesn't feel as honest somehow,
Or as clean.

I balance figuring things out with moving my body. Otherwise, I go stale. 

Tuesday, September 15, 2020

HELP COMES

"We are all benefactors and beneficiaries, dependent upon each other."
~ James Lendall Basford ~

Help comes-
Not in the way we hope for,
Or expect,
But nonetheless.

We are stuck,
And can't see our way forward.
Someone shines a light
In the opposite direction
From where we were looking
And shows us that actually,
We're not stuck at all.

What freedom 
In knowing
That helps comes.

When we need it,
It comes. 

I breathe and relax and know that all is well. 


Monday, September 14, 2020

THE JOURNEY OF MOODS

"I will wear my heart upon my sleeve."
~ William Shakespeare ~

Sadness.
Anger.
Worry.
Trust.
Peace. 

Emotions rise and fall in me like the tides. 

Sunday, September 13, 2020

NO MATTER WHAT

"We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.'
~ Marianne Williamson ~

No matter what we may have survived, 
or witnessed, 
or been ashamed of, 
We are not some tragic, cautionary tale.
We don't need to shrink and be afraid. 

We are pure, divine power experiencing manifest life, 
and we would do well to remember that 
as we go about our daily business.

I stand in my power. 

Thursday, September 10, 2020

BEING AWARE

"Love. The indigenous nature of the soul."
~ Morris Hyman ~

Even after something has been created,
If it has been created with love,
The love lingers.
It can be felt.

Love leaves footsteps and fingerprints wherever it goes.

Tuesday, September 8, 2020

WALKING THE ROAD

"Life is the game that must be played."
~ Edwin Arlington Robinson ~

When facing complexities and seeming impossibilities
in the world
and in our lives,
There's nothing for it but to 
move forward
one little bit at a time;
to pause if we need to,
to stop if we must,
but to pick up the road again
when we're rested,
and take a small step,
and then another...
And that's the way it goes.
forever and ever,
Amen. 

I keep on keeping on.

Monday, September 7, 2020

BEAUTY FROM THE SOURCE

"A morning glory at my window satisfies me more than the metaphysics of books."
~ Walt Whitman ~

I love candles 
and flowers.
Each so simple,
and so profound.
They change a space and make it sacred
And beautiful
And bright
And alive. 

I fill my environment with color and light.

Sunday, September 6, 2020

DECISION BY INSTINCT

"Instinct is untaught ability."
~ Alexander Bain ~

More often than not, 
when a decision has to be made, 
we actually know what our choice is going to be intuitively before we choose it.
Sometimes, however, 
in spite of our knowing, 
we talk ourselves in to an alternative option for logic's sake, 
or some other mental reasoning.
And inevitably, 
when we go that route, 
we pay for it.

I trust my intuitive knowing.

Thursday, September 3, 2020

THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT

"My back is broken by the conflict of my thoughts."
~ Rumi ~

I imagine most of us have had the experience of 
waking up in the middle of the night 
with a "figure it all out right now" kind of mindset. 
I've had a few of those lately... 
and the other night, 
in particular, 
I felt overwhelmed with the thought that, "There's so much happening!" 
Which was followed immediately by the thought that's there's actually nothing happening.
I'm just lying here in my bed in the middle of the night
With the ceiling fan flapping away overhead.

I stay in the moment and breathe. 

Wednesday, September 2, 2020

THE RECIPE

"You don't have to cook fancy or complicated masterpieces- just good from fresh ingredients."
~ Julia Child ~

Life is cumulative.
We start raw and experience tenderizes us,
And the input of our community
Marinates us,
And clarity emerging out of chaos
Slow cooks us until
We become a delicacy.

And then begin raw 
yet again. 

I become deliciously sweet and savory through the slow process of life in small bits.

Tuesday, September 1, 2020

THE SHIFTING EXPERIENCE

"The fact that life is a grind is what sharpens many a man's wits."
~ Boston Transcript ~

As children, we like puzzles and riddles and things we can't figure out.
They're FUN!
So why, when we become adults,
Do we shift,
And experience puzzles as problems,
And grind our teeth over them,
And sweat nervously,
And fret?

I look at problems as challenges, and enjoy the process of seeking solutions. 

Monday, August 31, 2020

KEEPING QUIET

"If I had to do it again, I'd ask more questions and interrupt fewer answers."
~ Robert Brault ~

Opinions are endless, prejudiced, eagerly offered, and generally
Not very helpful.
They reflect a personal,
Limited perspective. 
Sharing personal experience,
On the other hand,
Tends to land more gently,
but even then... 
It's not always appreciated.
Perhaps we might learn to
Keep quiet,
To watch,
To be aware of our inner desire
To know it all,
And fix it,
And puff out our chests and be 
Important....
And simply 
Listen instead. 

Sometimes silence is the most generous offering of all. 

Sunday, August 30, 2020

CARE TAKING

"The supreme accomplishment is to blur the line between work and play."
~ Arnold Toynbee ~

One of the things that I love about gardens is that they evolve with age-
They mature.
Houses and fences and foundations and paint,
On the other hand,
Deteriorate.
Both, however, suffer over time 
without regular maintenance.
Gardens choke with overgrowth
And structures collapse.

Maintenance is the key to longevity. 

Thursday, August 27, 2020

THE MONKEY TRAP

"Don't look where you fall, but where you slipped."
~ African Proverb ~


There's a story about a monkey trap.
The trap is a hollow coconut with a rope tied to one end,

A hole at the other end,
And a banana inside.
The monkey sees the banana and reaches in for it.
His hand slips easily through the hole.
But when he grabs the banana and wants to pull it out,
His fist won't fit,
And he's trapped...
Unless he's smart enough to let go.

I relax my grip on things. 

Wednesday, August 26, 2020

EMPATHY

"There is one word which may serve as a rule of practice for all of one's life- reciprocity."
~ Confucius ~

Empathy is a skill lacking some in most of us.
We tend to be so consumed with our own sense of righteous indignation
That we are incapable of considering what it might be like for someone else,
And this is a sadness,
Because it makes us miss the exchange journey of the human heart.

I catch myself being consumed with my personal perspective and flip the script. 

Tuesday, August 25, 2020

LIFTED LIKE A FEATHER

"The truth is simple."
~ Mooji ~

When we stop anxiously trying to control outcomes and give ourselves over to the process at hand, we will be carried- by people, by serendipitous happenings, and by the calling of our own inner knowing. It's uncanny how it works. The minute we let go and relax, rather than crashing in a pile on the ground, we are lifted like a feather into the beautiful journey of the unknown.

I surrender. 

Monday, August 24, 2020

LIFE CHANGES

"My head is bursting with the joy of the unknown."
~ Rumi ~

Life changes.
And life changes us.

I'm living the journey.

Sunday, August 23, 2020

NOTHING LEFT TO INVENT

"I admit to having an imagination feverish enough to melt good judgment."
~ Dean R. Koontz ~

It's often easier to start things than to finish them. 
The idea of what could be drives us onward.
When imagination's part has run its course, though,
Interest tends to wane.
The creative part is largely over.
There's nothing left to invent,
And we feel the pull to
Move on. 

The creative urge leads us forever onward. 

Thursday, August 20, 2020

SIMPLE SOLUTIONS

"'Go back to bed,' said the omniscient voice, because you don't need to know the final answer right now, at three o'clock in the morning."

~ Elizabeth Gilbert ~

No matter the intensity of the emotional storm within us,
It abates with 
A good meal, 
A good sleep,
and a walk around the block.

I am grateful for simple solutions to seemingly impossible problems.

Wednesday, August 19, 2020

WIPED OUT

"Maybe I think too much..."
~ Paul Simon ~

So much of what we spend our hours thinking about-
Future problems that we aim to solve in advance-
Never happen.
A different path in a completely alternate direction
Opens up
And all those hours,
All that "productive" thinking,
Is wiped out
in a flash.

I let life come and go in a gentle stream and stop trying to push the river by thinking I know what's ahead.

Tuesday, August 18, 2020

THE HUMAN ELEMENT

"Man is still the most extraordinary computer of all."
~ JFK ~

Computers serve their purpose, but they can only take us so far.
The human element cannot be duplicated.
Some things we simply have to do in person, live. 

I use my computer for leads, and follow them in the flesh. 

Monday, August 17, 2020

LIFE!

"One day at a time."
~ Bill Wilson ~

Sometimes life is small and unexceptional and mundane.

And sometimes it's so BIG that the only way through it is with
small steady steps and
Deep breathing,
And it still knots the stomach and
clenches the throat.

Life demands to be be lived!

Sunday, August 16, 2020

FACING DIFFICULT TRUTHS

"Who pays the piper calls the tune."
~ English Phrase ~

Facing difficult truths we have skillfully learned to sidestep and work around isn't easy, but there comes a time, when it's just what we have to do. 

I answer when the piper calls. 

Thursday, August 13, 2020

THE WAY IT IS

"Que sera, sera."
~ Jay Livingston and Ray Evans ~

Maybe,
or
Maybe not.
Who knows?

It will be what it will be.

Wednesday, August 12, 2020

HEAD OUT THE WINDOW

"I may not overcome the inevitable, but O, it is mine 
to see that the inevitable does not overcome me."
~ Muriel Strode ~

I can't control the wind or the rain;
Can't control other people's moods,
Opinions,
Life lessons;
Can't control traffic,
The stock market,
Politics,
Accidents,
Or even, sometimes
My own thoughts.

The older I get, 
the more I realize,
Life is not about what I can control,
It's about what I can experience,
And underneath the surface noise,
Who I really am. 

I let go of control and enjoy the ride!




Tuesday, August 11, 2020

ON AND ON WE GO

"From here to eternity."
~ James Jones ~

Each action, each RE-action,
Each decision, 
Each move,
Leads us through a door
And opens a space
For the next move,
And the next decision.
And on and on we go forever.

I am patient with the process of life.

Monday, August 10, 2020

TALKING WITH TEXT

"Once upon a time we were just plain people."
~ Ellen Goodman ~

Sometimes we send our messages into a cyber vacuum.
There's no response and we wonder why-
Gives opportunity to the story making mind... 
And then, often,
Responses to everything we've sent out all come at once in a rush,
And we find ourselves hustling to juggle the information.
It's the rhythm of life, I guess-
Sporadic and choppy
And percussive
And smooth. 

I accept the ebb and flow of what sometimes are, and sometimes are not instantaneous communications. 

Sunday, August 9, 2020

LIGHT AND EASY

"The little prince broke into a lovely peal of laughter, 
which irritated me very much. 
I like my misfortunes to be taken seriously."
~ Antoine De Saint Exupery ~

We can go through the day with a "put upon" kind of feeling,
That spreads all over everything and everyone we encounter like melting butter,
And be triggered to go "off" like a cocked gun,
Or not.

It's more enjoyable 
When we stop taking ourselves and our lives so seriously
And remember that it's all a kind of play
And that no matter what we're doing,
We can be light and easy and relaxed
And laugh.

I create the reality in which I live. 

Thursday, August 6, 2020

HINT OF FALL

"There was... jubilee in that annual autumnal beginning."
~ Wallace Stegner ~

Just when summer heat starts to wear a little thin-
Another day of sweating-
Here it comes-
The tiniest hint of a fall feeling,
And I rejoice in that!
I love the fall. 

Change happens right on time. 

Wednesday, August 5, 2020

SURROUND SOUND LOUD

"True merit, like a river, the deeper it is, the less noise it makes."
~ Edward Frederick Halifax ~

The ego finds plenty to complain about
And all kinds of ways to compare
And feel scared.

The ego trips us up
And creates stories
And worry.

The ego is surround sound loud
And hard to pin down
And full of frowning misery. 

It rules the day
Until we say
ENOUGH!

And become quiet,
And breathe,
And remember who we really are.

Surface noise is just that. 

Tuesday, August 4, 2020

CERTAINTY

"Judge not lest ye be judged."
~ Jesus ~

Certainty does not equal correctness.
We can be 100% certain about something-
Feel SURE, 
totally sure, 
that we're SPOT ON,
And be completely wrong.
It happens.
Frequently.
So perhaps, 
a bit of tenderness
Towards ourselves and others,
And this whole sea of opinions in which we live
Might be
Helpful,
And compassionate,
and
  Kind. 

I honor and appreciate all the world's perspectives.

Monday, August 3, 2020

STILLNESS

"Cultivate quietness."
~ Elbert Hubbard ~

Action, hard work, movement, ambition,
All of these have their place,
their time- 
their use.
And so does
Silence, and 
so does
Stillness, and
so does
inner peace.

Every so often, I retreat. 

Sunday, August 2, 2020

THE STATE OF CORONA

"To live is so startling, it leaves little time for anything else."
~Emily Dickinson ~

Whether we are living in a state of Corona Virus or not,
Life is still life-
Cycling ups and downs,
Sorrows and pleasures,
Fear and trust,
Confusion and certainty,
Anger and calm.
It's the way of the living experience.

This is just what's happening now. 

Thursday, July 30, 2020

OUR GREAT IDEA

"We can't know how something will turn out until we try it, 
and then we get immediate feedback."
~ Dan Thurmon ~

We get a great idea.
We act on it,
And it flops. 
There may be consequences. 
We might beat ourselves up.
But we can't UN-do it.
We have to live with 
Whatever the result may be.

I trust that all outcomes- even those that seem undesirable- somehow serve the greater good. 



Wednesday, July 29, 2020

GOING ROUND AND ROUND

"I move easily between the seasons."
~James McGrath ~

A beginning is always an ending

And an ending is always a beginning.
It's how life works. 


I accept the cyclical nature of this living experience. 

Tuesday, July 28, 2020

RAIN OR DRY?

"Life takes care of life."
~ Mooji ~

There was no call for rain in the weather forecast I saw, 
Everything has been super dry,
And I felt a kind of pressure to get all the plants watered
So they wouldn't
Dry up
Or die. 
I had angst about me
As I pulled the hose from 
Section to section,
And went through the day
Aware that there was more to get to.

And then, in the late afternoon,
I saw a slice of lightning 
And grey clouds developing,
Followed by a soaking shower,
And was reminded that things have a way of working out,
So no need for angst or pressure.
I can relax about my business,
And take it all in stride.

I remember to make allowance in my schedule for God's Grace. 

Monday, July 27, 2020

SIDE BY SIDE

"What you choose also chooses you."
~ Kamand Kojouri ~

It facilitates choosing greatly to choose between 2 things- this or that- rather than be given multiple options, or something open-ended. "Whatever you want," is very difficult to respond to. Often we don't know what we want until we have two things side by side and we can compare and determine a preference. So, when trying to determine what others want, let's break it down for them, and make it as simple as possible, and do the same for ourselves. 

I simplify the choosing process by limiting the choices. 

Sunday, July 26, 2020

THIS WAY AND THAT

"I will swear by a thing to-day but I will have the courage to denounce it tomorrow, if needs be."
~ Muriel Strode~ 

I am helping a good friend move this week-
Everything in boxes, or otherwise protected and packed.
I've done it so many times myself-
The bittersweet journey of closing one chapter,
And beginning another.
It's all of life really,
Moving,
Moving,
Moving. 
We land wherever we land and say, "Never again,"
And a few years later,
or a few days later,
Or a few hours later,
Our vision has shifted,
Our energy has lifted,
Or fallen,
And we are at it again.

Life is ever and always in flux.

Thursday, July 23, 2020

HIGH INTEGRITY YARD EFFORTS

"A rising tide lifts all boats."
~ American Aphorism ~

I've been privileged to witness high integrity yard efforts
Rub off on others.
When one of us cares about doing a good job,
Doing a good job
Becomes a desirable thing.
And perhaps it works in the opposite direction as well
With not caring...

In light of the insight,
It's worth considering...
In which direction do we tend?

Doing a good job matters to me. I care.


Wednesday, July 22, 2020

WHERE IS THE STABILITY?

"Learning how to operate a soul figures to take time."
~ Timothy Leary ~

Looking back on our lives, we can see that we have outgrown many phases. 
"I'm not that person anymore," we tell ourselves,
And others.
So the question is,
If we're not that person anymore, who was that person?
And who are we now?

Who I am in the world is constantly in flux.


Tuesday, July 21, 2020

SIMPLER THAN WE MAKE IT

"It's good to be alive right about now."
~ Andy Grammer ~

Mostly,
What we have to do in life is
show up for it:
Wake up,
Be alive,
Feel our feelings, and
Speak our truths.
It's simpler than we make it-
Nothing to prove,
No one to impress-
Just present,
And authentic,
And in the game. 

I show up for life.  

Monday, July 20, 2020

READY TO GO OFF

"The past lies upon the present like a giant's dead body.":
~ Nathaniel Hawthorne ~

We drag our past around with us like a ball and chain. 
It lurks in the background 
of our every happening
like a cocked trigger
Ready to go off. 
Painful experiences in the past excite fear in the present.
And happy memories stir up false hope.

It's a limit on our lives,
That's the point.
It keeps things
Stale,
When life is meant to 
be
lived 
fresh!

I accept the past, and don't let it enslave me. 

Sunday, July 19, 2020

LIVING COMMUNITY

"It is good to be alone in a garden at dawn or dark so that all its shy presences may haunt you and posses you in a reverie of suspended thought."
~ James Douglas ~

These days, the flowers in my garden are my primary community. 
I miss being out in the world with people, 
but not being able to do that, 
I find the gardens make good company. 
     Every day, someone new is thriving, 
someone is in need of water or pruning, 
someone is wilted from the heat, and 
someone wants to move. 
It's a living community like any other, and I tend to it with curiosity and love. 
     The flowers and I give to each other, 
struggle together, 
and dance in the hot breeze as the days wind there way along. 

I thank God for gardens. 

Thursday, July 16, 2020

THE TRUTH BEHIND THE TRUTH

"I am vast. I contain multitudes."
~ Walt Whitman ~

I am a mother and a daughter and a wife and an athlete and a writer and a gardener 
and a lover of nature. 
I am a hard worker. 
I am strong.
And in some way, all of these things describe who I am,
And in another,
they don't describe me at all.

Who I am is deeper than the role I play in the manifest world. 

Wednesday, July 15, 2020

PROBLEM SOLVING COMMUNICATION

"The most precious gift we can offer anyone is our attention."
~ Thich Nhat Hanh ~

I am grateful to have learned that there's not much in a relationship
That can't be 
Freed,
Cleared,
Let go, and
Resolved,
Through the simple process of
Having a conversation.
It takes two open and willing people,
the courage to speak up, and
the curiosity to listen,
But that's all it takes.
The rest is up to Grace.
And life always feels better
When whatever needs to be said
Has been 
Said. 

I share from the heart and listen in kind. 

Tuesday, July 14, 2020

GARDEN DISCOVERY

"It wouldn't be a picnic without the ants."
~ Colloquial Saying ~

I discovered grubs in the garden today,
And I guess 
Sometimes
That's just the way it goes. 

I take challenges in stride.

Monday, July 13, 2020

RISING IRE

"Laughter is a feather. Anger is a brick."
~ Terri Guillemets ~

On any given day,
A handful of situations might arise
To raise our pulse
And our ire.
Something unpleasant to deal with
could come in the form of an email,
Or a phone call,
Or a report on the news.
And the question is,
How do we keep these happenings
From stealing our peace?
How do we let them go?

Primarily, I suppose,
We have to watch our mind's desire to 
Be interested in them, and start weaving 
A complex narrative
With layers of meaning, and plans of retribution.

And breathing helps.
And listening and looking and getting
Fully present in the moment.

And movement,
And music,
And distraction, 
And humor.

Life will trigger us.

When it does, 
will we
Go off?

Even in testy situations, I keep my cool. 

Sunday, July 12, 2020

THANK GOD

"If the only prayer you ever say is thank you, it will be enough."
~ Meister Eckhart ~

Thank God for flowers,
For daylight and dusk,
For good music to move to,
Hugs to soothe you,
And love, love, love. 

We are blessed. 

Thursday, July 9, 2020

LIFE'S PARADOX

"The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence."
~ Ovid ~

When there's too much rain, 
And everything is muddy and washing away,
We'd do anything for sunshine;
And when the earth is dry and dusty
And burnt up,
We'd do anything for rain. 

I stop wanting things to be other than they are. 

Wednesday, July 8, 2020

NO LONGER A VICTIM

"Knowledge is power."
~ Thomas Jefferson ~

We can complain about a situation forever-
How we don't like it,
How it frustrates us,
How we wish it were different,
But there is no power in that.

When we accept it as it is,
And deal with it from there,
That's something!

Then we have choices,
And the burden is lifted,
And we're no longer a victim,
And we can do as we please. 

If I find myself complaining about something in an ongoing way, I stop talking and get into action. 

Tuesday, July 7, 2020

TRIGGERED

"One of the habits of the mind is the invention of horrible imaginings."
~ Jotge Luis Borges ~

Happily going about our day, our ego can 
suddenly be triggered 
and we become
instantly irritable.
It's like a flame ignition.
We are lit.
Generally, it's something unpleasant from the past
That has been drug to the surface,
And connects one negative narrative to another
Like a stream of connected handkerchiefs 
out of a magician's hat.
And they will keep on coming until we 
Wake up
And catch the process in action.
It's not unusual for our mind
To want 
To take us down.

I learn the ways of mind games. 

Monday, July 6, 2020

SIMPLE, QUIET, AND CLEAR

"Realize deeply that the present moment is all you have."
~ Eckhart Tolle ~

Perhaps now more than ever we can benefit from simple pleasures,
Sensations,
Changing light.
We can elevate our world by picking
A bouquet of wildflowers,
Or watching chirping birds
as they twitter
And swoop;
Tasting coffee
Or tea,
A sweet peach,
Or 
Cold water in delicious gulps. 

We don't have to be at the mercy of any narrative.
It's up to us.
We write the script.

The pleasures of life remain. 

Sunday, July 5, 2020

WEEDING

"To know when to go away and when to come closer is the key to any lasting relationship."
~ Domenico Cieri Estrada ~

Without proper maintenance and care, 
life, 
like a garden, 
returns to chaos.

I value a sense of order and keep things neat. 

Thursday, July 2, 2020

SHORTCUTS

"A stitch in time saves nine."
~ Ben Franklin ~

Shortcuts don't always work the way we hope they will, 
maybe because of the energy that's involved in wanting to take them in the first place. 
We think up a clever way to save time and save work- 
make it easier.
But sometimes, 
maybe even more often than not- 
the shortcut we come up with ends up taking longer, 
and requiring more effort,
than the obvious, 
straightforward, 
strong and 
steady 
way through.

To get the job done, we just have to do it. 

Wednesday, July 1, 2020

CONTESTING OPINIONS

"To each their own."
~ English Idiom ~

It's easy to think we know what it's like to be someone else, 
but the truth is, 
We don't.
And they don't know what it's like to be us.
We create the world we live in.
We pick and choose what's important and what's not.
And, while it's true that beyond the surface mental noise
We are one at the core,
That's a truth missed by most.
So what we're left with
Is contesting opinions,
Myriad visions,
And insistent thoughts.

I take care of me, and trust you to take care of you.

Tuesday, June 30, 2020

THE GIFT OF CONVERSATION

"Talk to people about themselves and they will listen for hours."
~ Benjamin Disraeli ~

Spending time in conversation,
Being curious,
Asking questions,
And sharing from our own experience,
Opens a doorway,
And makes room,
for love,
to pass through.

Opening my mind opens my heart. 

Monday, June 29, 2020

MOVING THE MAPLE TREE

"Plants are the young of the world, vessels of health and vigor..."
~ RW Emerson ~

Our son, Nick, is moving to the West Coast.
He leaves at the end of this week, 
And we have given him his family sendoff.
Interestingly, 
As life would have it,
Our last spontaneous collective effort on the farm
Was to transplant a Maple tree from a location
Where it didn't seem entirely happy
To a spot on the hill
Where it has a commanding view
And God willing,
Will thrive. 
It didn't occur to us until we had completed the job how
Fitting it was-
How perfectly allegorical-
And how beautifully complete.

The Cosmic Flow bears endless blessings. 

Sunday, June 28, 2020

CONCEPT VERSUS REALITY

"Earth's tribulations diminish in proportion to the elevation of our souls."
~ James Lendall Basford ~

We get an idea, a vision, in our minds about the way something will be-
About the way we think we want it to be,
And then,
It doesn't quiet turn out like that,
And we feel annoyed and resistant and try to force it to be the 
Way we envisioned it,
but we can't,
Because it has evolved out of its own kind of spontaneous 
cosmic evolution
That has nothing at all to do
with the thoughts in our mind.
And often, 
If we can just stop trying to match it to what we were thinking 
it should be,
And let it be what it is,
We will see that it is ok,
Maybe good even,
And maybe better than it would have been 
had we been able 
to force our will.

I remain open to the way things turn out. 

Thursday, June 25, 2020

THE SOUND OF MUSIC

"I sing the body electric,"
~ Walt Whitman ~

Think of a drumbeat,
An earthy, soulful, repetitive rhythm
That gets your body waked up,
And pumps through your 
veins like blood.

Now, a saxophone,
Sensual,
Sultry,
Rising and falling
Into and
Across a dimly lit room
Full of people.

Now, a flute,
Quick and happy..

A harmonica...

And an electric guitar...

Each sound transports us
In its unique and wonderful way.
These, and others like them,
 are instruments 
of grace.

I am blessed by the sound of music. 


Wednesday, June 24, 2020

SITTING ON THE PORCH

"Deep summer is when laziness finds respectability."
~ Sam Keen ~

People, 
and especially country people, 
like to sit on the porch in the summertime.
I used to take a walk past an older couple's house every evening after work 
when we lived further North in the Shenandoah Valley, 
and as soon as the weather got warm,
and until it cooled, 
there they sat. 
I would always call my hellos, and occasionally, 
I'd stop and we'd chat a bit. 
They loved it best when the "air was stirring,"
And I loved to hear them say that,
And think of them both
Every time I feel the breeze when it's hot.
Molly and John.
They each had some health issues, so I'm not sure they're alive still,
But if they are, and if they can,
I'm certain that
on the porch is where they'll be.

Stirring summer air is a delicious sensory experience. 

Tuesday, June 23, 2020

THE PROBLEM WITH MASKS

"A man's face is his autobiography."
~ Oscar Wilde ~

The problem with masks is that
We can't see each other.
We miss the beauty of the human face,
and see only the eyes
If we are brave enough not to avoid them
in the awkwardness of meeting
all covered up
like a bank robber.
We've gotten creative with our masks
And tried to make them
Colorful,
Relevant,
Becoming,
High-tech...
But there's no way to bypass
The simple truth
Of the missing
countenance.

I celebrate the unique and wonderful features of the human face. 

Monday, June 22, 2020

LIKE A ROCK

"Let soul and world meet."
~ Rumi ~

Deep inside
we are 
ALWAYS
fine. 

At the core level, all is well. 

Sunday, June 21, 2020

COMPATIBLE PEOPLE

"Relationship is an art."
~ Don Miguel Ruiz ~

Getting to know compatible people is a pleasure, and it's in our best interest to remain open to relationships and perspectives of all kinds.
We never know who we might meet.

I am willing to stretch a bit to encounter others I can relate to. 

Thursday, June 18, 2020

THE SOLSTICE

"Heat, ma'am! it was so dreadful here, that I found there was nothing left for it but to take off my flesh and sit in my bones."
~ Sydney Smith ~

Into summer we plunge
Wearing masks on our faces
Standing 6 feet apart
Celebrating fathers
Fighting for social justice
And doing,
as always,
the best that we can.

In spite of confusing external circumstances, on the inside, we remain the same. 

Wednesday, June 17, 2020

STRANGE MIX

"The powerful play goes on..."
~ Walt Whitman ~

Life is a strange mix of clarity and confusion,
Pleasure and pain,
And things not working out at all as planned, but 
Better usually,
If that's possible,
And generally for our
Highest 
Evolutionary
Good. 

I stay the course and trust the process. 

Tuesday, June 16, 2020

BEING AMERICAN

"Forever in peace may you wave."
~ George M. Cohen ~

We have just planted a flagpole on our farm, and surprisingly, I felt a bit of 
shame and discomfort around it initially.
It's a stout pole, so maybe that's why, 
or maybe because of current cultural circumstances. 
It took me time and reflection and conversation and movement to remember and acknowledge that
I love the symbol of the American Flag.
I like the colors of it, the traditions around it, and the way it flaps in the wind.
And mostly, I love that it stands for FREEDOM,
And an adventurous, against-all-odds kind of spirit. 
At least, that's what it means to me. 
I love Tibetan prayer flags as well,
And nautical flags,
And the slapping of halyards on the pole.
I love all the flags of the world.
I love them flying singly, and mixed up together.
I love the sound of a flag in the wind.
And so, I've made peace with my own inner resistance 
And find I am ok with the flag
And the pole
And all of it.

It's ok to be who I am. 

Monday, June 15, 2020

SADNESS

"That some good can be derived from every event is a better proposition than that everything happens for the best, which it assuredly does not."
~ James K. Feibleman ~

I sense sad energy in the world sometimes.
I feel it in my bones.
All the human pain and regret.
It's out there-
All tangled up with the light.

I am sensitive to the tenderness of hurting hearts. 

Sunday, June 14, 2020

CHAOS INTO STILLNESS

"Get mad, then get over it."
~ Colin Powell ~

Irritability, suspicion, guardedness, resentment, blame- 
these are the fruit of inner mind-games. 
Rarely based in reality, 
they are the result of 
a vicious thunderstorm of thoughts.
And unspoken, they form and build like massive cumulus clouds.
When the rain finally pours, confession style, 
Or blustery like a hurricane,
Then there is calm...
The calm that comes after the storm. 

I admit to the turbulence of the stories in my head. 


Thursday, June 11, 2020

RELAXATION

"The song sings itself."
~ William Carlos Williams ~

Summer evenings have a magical quality about them. 
The hot day recedes, but it's still warm.
The light eases down gracefully.
Bodies are tired from the efforts of the day
And there's a relaxation present
That feeds the soul.

I notice and appreciate the soothing sensations of warm summer evenings.

Wednesday, June 10, 2020

NEUTRALITY

"Let him who is without sin cast the first stone."
~ John 8:7 ~

Neutrality has its benefits.
Being able to see both sides
of a situation,
of an argument,
of a perspective different from our own, 
allows for space,
and distance,
And leaves room inside
For compassion,
And understanding,
And unity,
And peace,
And love.

I look carefully and see from all directions.





Tuesday, June 9, 2020

TRANSITIONS

"Those who expect moments of change to be comfortable and free of conflict have not learned their history."
~ Joan Wallach Scott ~

Our pup, Tank, is home from training camp, and not only has he grown in size, but his demeanor has shifted. It's what we had hoped for, and yet, it leaves us all a bit adrift. 
He has been in a highly structured environment, and seems unsure about all this home front freedom, and we are clumsy with the new commands. 
     We will find our way. I am certain of that.
     Nonetheless, this transition, like all transitions, feels awkward, 
and makes me want to eat lots of ice cream. 

I am a work in progress. 

Monday, June 8, 2020

ALL THAT IS

"You are the universe in ecstatic motion."
~ Rumi ~

From the moment we open our eyes in the morning, 
life as we know it, begins: 
the things we notice, our choice for breakfast, the world of our routines. 

When we fall asleep at night, 
the whole world disappears 
until we wake again. 

Nothing exists for us 
that we do not participate in or witness, 
and, 
as such,
we are the 
source 
of 
all that is. 

My very existence creates the world I experience. 


Sunday, June 7, 2020

WHAT TO SAY, WHAT TO DO?

"Love truth and fear not-
Do good and be happy."
~ Simeon Carter ~

We have a tendency to want to work things out in our minds in advance of their actually happening. We script the conversation: 
If he says this, I'll say that, 
and we carefully design a plan of action steps: 
first, second, third... 
But how often do things play out as we imagine they will? 
And are we ever at a loss for knowing what to say or do? 
I would argue that 
spontaneous responsiveness 
to whoever and whatever appears 
is far more effective in every instance 
than some over-practiced scenario 
we have come up with in our heads. 

I trust my intuitive knowing.

Thursday, June 4, 2020

BREATHE IN, BREATHE OUT, LOOK AROUND

"We should purify our innate well of contentment."
~ Ekhart Tolle ~

Authentic presence is the embodiment of God.

Divine peace is accessible now.

Wednesday, June 3, 2020

THE PRIVILEGE OF CHOOSING

"In the field of indecision, nothing ever grow but the weeds of 'what-if?'"
~ Dodinsky ~

Sometimes we are indecisive because we want to keep our options open.
We don't want to choose because we're afraid we might choose wrong,
We think if we wait and see for long enough, then maybe life will decide for us,
And relieve us of the responsibility.
But then we've given up the very privilege 
that we might do better
to keep. 

I don't cop out on making choices. I weigh the options and pick one. 

Tuesday, June 2, 2020

TRYING THINGS

"The purpose of life is to frustrate you."
~ Ekhart Tolle ~

Some of the things we pursue in life are like trees that never bear fruit: something about the soil conditions or the light. If we move on to something else, the bounty can be prodigious, but for whatever reason, the first effort fell flat.
     We think we know where we're headed and what will work, but so often we're wrong and it doesn't. The Universe has other plans. And the lesson is not to stop trying things, but to stop taking the outcome of the things we try so seriously, as if our worth is all tied up in it. It's curiosity and play and experimentation that we're meant to be about, not success and failure and living or not living up to our potential.
     I used to think it was just that, but now I see, that yet again, I was mistaken.

Our worth is not attached to how poorly or well our big ideas play out. 
It's far more secure than that. 

Monday, June 1, 2020

NOTICING

"Not being able to govern events, I govern myself."
~ Michel de Montaigne ~

There is unexpected comfort in the background sounds of our lives when our minds are quiet enough to notice them: water running, the tearing of paper towels, the opening and closing of drawers and doors, the turning of container caps, the tick of a wall clock, our breath. Life is full of blessings if we will only listen, and look, and stop surfing the waves of our mind noise.

The sounds of life happening empty and fill the silence that surrounds me.

Sunday, May 31, 2020

TREES AND MOUNTAINS

"Happiness is an occasional brief glance into how simple it all can be."
~ Robert Brault ~

We have two Norway Spruce trees in the front yard. They're probably a hundred years old, or better, and they tower above the house and rise up with their dripping silhouettes at night, back-dropped by stars. Behind them, across the road, a creek runs year round, and water sings and gurgles as it makes its way downstream. Mountains surround us. The house supports us with it's solid brick interior walls. We work the land, the land works us, and wildlife and wildflowers abound. 
     It's a good setting for a glorious life. 

I am blessed by the environment in which I live. 

Thursday, May 28, 2020

FEELING ALRIGHT

"What I assume you shall assume for every atom belonging to me as good belongs to you."
~ Walt Whitman ~

I lack for nothing.
I am perfectly, supremely ok.

We are all in this together. 

Wednesday, May 27, 2020

THE ONE WE REALLY ARE

"There is that in me- I do not know what it is- but I know it is in me..."
~ Walt Whitman ~

What is the nature of our fear? 
We seem so small in the universe- mere pinpricks- and yet, 
we feel that all will collapse if we are not in charge. 
But it hasn't collapsed yet.
Life on earth has been here, and will continue to be here,
until it's here no more,
And we will remain trapped in our fear, 
plagued with our dreams of achievement and importance,
until we realize
that the only one we really are
cares not a lick about fear or achievement or any of it.
The one we are at core
isn't worried a bit.

At the source level, I am ever and always secure.