FRESH DIRECTION

     Alcoholism is an insidious disease. Its victims are lost in swirling darkness and vicious cycles of obsession and justification. And all of our various and sundry addictions are the same. They are wheels in motion, wheels of action and thinking that are spinning out of control, and the only way to stop them is to stop: to jolt the wheel and lurch to a halt. And then we have to slowly, slowly, start turning the wheel in the completely opposite direction. If we try to keep going in the same way, to "modify" ourselves, we may be able to keep pace for a bit, but eventually we will be spinning wild yet again. The only real correction is to move in an entirely new way.

I am honest about the aspects of my life that are spinning out of control, and I am willing to stop, and learn to turn slowly and steadily in a fresh direction.