MOOD SHIFT

     It's funny in life how we can be going along happily, merrily almost, and then, without warning, there is a shift within. We are suddenly dark and broody as if we have been crossed, but it's hard to identify what or who has crossed us. If we get quiet and honest and ask the right sort of reflective questions of ourselves, we can usually root out the source, but often we are in the midst of people when we find ourselves suddenly irritable, so it's hard to take the time to restore our equilibrium and we remain dislodged and discombobulated.
     We are so easily triggered, especially when we are tired and hungry. The slightest word by someone we encounter can unleash a well of old emotions and self-pity, and angst of every kind. And then we are subjected to the the thrashing disorder of our feelings as they act out on us. And then we end up acting out on them. We feel ourselves grouchy and out-of-control, but we don't know how to make it stop. The only way is to stop ourselves- to re-group and begin again- start over.
     It's hard work being human. So many small things so easily become big deals if we are not vigilant and aware of the flowing emotional currents inside of us. Awareness is the path to peace; awareness and attendance; watching ourselves, and taking the time to diligently address our issues before they take over our day.

I bring awareness to the things in life that trigger my dark emotions and get a handle on them before they get a handle on me.